I’m home, full-time, and it feels different, but this where God has been calling my heart for the last several months.
Back in February, I started back working full-time for the first time in about 3 years. A lot has changed in those 3 years. I’ve changed, but somehow, even though my thinking, my lifestyle, everything had absolutely shifted, I found myself being sucked into this old mindset that money=security. Let me share what money actually has meant for me these last several months: spending 2.5 frantic hours with my daughter every day, 2 1/4 hours of which were consumed with meal preparation, cleanup and discipline. That’s right, I had about 15 minutes a day to lie down in bed with her to read her a story before she fell asleep. This just wasn’t working. My heart was breaking and finally I decided that I needed to request that I go part-time. This wasn’t an option, so I handed my resignation in about 2 weeks ago. Through this whole time, God has given me peace, I’m telling you it’s unreal, and I’m also telling you that God had a pretty cool way of confirming this decision: I was standing in the corner of the copy room at work, just a few days after I’d made my final decision and God said, “I gave her to you for a reason.” That’s all I needed to know I was doing the right thing. Where we proceed from here? I’m trusting Him.
Proverbs 19:21—Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
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