Yesterday I began sharing about my struggle with learning how to lean on people again, (finding safe people, I believe is the trick and I believe God will give us the discernment in this area if we ask), I began sharing how I came to this realization through Elijah’s own “lone wolf” mentality:
When Elijah’s God proved himself real and faithful, Elijah seized the false prophets and killed them.
And then God then sent rain. And Elijah ran all the way to Israel, ahead of Ahab, to Jezreel. When Jezebel, Ahab’s wife and originator of all things Baal-centered got wind of all the killing that Elijah had done, she sent a death threat to Elijah, “May the gods deal with me, bet it ever so severely, if by this time tomorrow I do not make your life like that of one of them.” (referring to the dead prophets). Elijah ran for his life and went to Beersheba, in Judah, leaving his servant there and continued another day’s journey into the desert. Here he comes to a tree, heaves himself down and asks God to kill him, “I have had enough Lord, take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” (I Kings 19: 4).
The fight is hard; there is persecution on all sides. It is physically exhausting and mentally draining and you want it to stop, thinking it would be easier if we just didn’t have to go through it at all–take me now.
In shear exhaustion, Elijah falls asleep.
An angel appears to Elijah with food and drink and encourages him to refresh himself. He gets up, eats and drinks and then lies back down again. The angel comes back a second time, touches Elijah and says to him, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.” Elijah does just that, this refreshed him to the point that he could travel 40 days and forty nights to Mount Horeb where God has another word waiting for him.
In our journey, there are going to be some really scary, physically and emotionally taxing things that God asks us to do: obey, confront, stand firm and see the deliverance of God. Even when we see the miraculous, we falter, and we become afraid. God understands this, because, as we see in James 5:17, Elijah was a man just like us!
But here is a critical point in the story of Elijah, the point that I want you to come away with, when God appears to Elijah at Horeb, they have a conversation, twice God asks Elijah what he is doing there. Elijah explains that he has been very zealous for God to a people who have no reverence for him. He goes on to say that all of the other prophets have fallen by the sword, he is the only one left and that they are trying to kill him too, and in a powerful act of wind, earthquake and fire, all sent from the Lord, the Heavenly Father comes to Elijah like a good father would come to his son, tenderly, patiently, with love: in a gentle whisper, reassuring Elijah, that he is listening and he does love him and that he wants him to keep going.
Part 3 tomorrow…