No wonder Jesus got so frustrated with the disciples. He was doing everything he could to appeal to them on their level, talking of bread, wine, etc. and still they weren’t getting it. I’m pretty sure that’s why we’re referred to as sheep so often, we’re dumb, we need direction, CONTINUAL direction, the only thing we really are good for is hearing our Shepherd’s voice. It’s true, my friend raised a couple of sheep for 4-H and she said tenderly, repeatedly that the sheep always knew her voice. It made me want to cry.
This week’s lesson for my bible study in Mark brought me to 8: 1-21, the feeding of 4,000. We were asked to contrast this with the feeding of the 5, 000 (6:30-44). In both instances the disciples complain after Jesus says that they need to feed the crowd. In the first account, they complain about how costly it’s going to be (8 months wages!) in the second account the disciples complain about the inconvenience (we’re in the middle of nowhere, how are we going to do that?!).
Yet, both accounts start off with the approximately the same amount of food (5 loaves and 2 small fish and 7 loaves and a few small fish).
And both accounts have the same miraculous results: full bellies all around and 12 and 7 basketfuls of leftovers.
It bears repeating: OUR GOD IS AMAZING.
Moving forward in chapter 8, now we get to the frustrating part: after feeding the 4,000, Jesus sent the crowd on their way, got into the boat with his disciples and went to the region of Dalmanutha, here the Pharisees came and questioned Jesus. In order to test him, they asked for a sign from heaven, Jesus sighs deeply and says that no, they will not get their sign (I wonder if He was thinking to himself, “I AM that sign?”). After this, he gets into his boat and crosses over to the other side.
The disciples had forgotten to pack food for the trip and only had one loaf of bread left, Jesus warns them to watch out for the yeast of the Pharisees and that of Herod. Here, my study refers us to I Corinthians 5:6-8 where the old yeast of the Pharisees is referred to as malice and wickedness.
The disciples get this quizzical look on their faces and talk among themselves and they insist: “It is because we have no bread.”
I can feel the frustration and sadness in Jesus’s question: “Why are you talking about having no bread? Do you still not see or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear?
And don’t you remember?”
He asks them how many basketfuls were left over after each feeding and they answer in turn, and he asks them, “Do you still not understand?”
Jesus was expecting them to have seen, heard, and remembered that God was bringing them new bread and he was providing out of his abundance! NOT out of anything they could earn or provide on their own. He wanted them to live out full, abundant lives, not in fear or worry, simply doing what God had called them to do: to trust God to meet needs, to heal, to preach the gospel and walk in a manner that’s worthy of being called His disciples. I know it, I’m preachin’ to the choir right now.
If I am doing what God has called me to do: be a godly mother, nurture my child and teach her the ways of Christ, live out my life in a way that testifies to the gospel of his grace, that’s it. Why strive for anything else? Why question the one loaf we have in our hands?
My pastor, at least once a month in his sermons says, “You say to yourself, but I’m just a homemaker. No, you are NOT just a homemaker, you are shaping minds, you are shaping hearts, don’t forget about that.”